Missing you

I know ,I know,Father's Day isn't until later on in the month,but I miss him now .You see,today's his birthday. I miss my dad often...when I'm stressed or lonely or sad or just need someone to talk to,who'll tell me the right thing to do.Sometimes I see something I know he'd love,like a tv show about boats or the latest new car show or this neat show on those huge converted busses ,like mansions, that cost over a million dollars and how they're made .Dad was an aeronautical engineer and he really enjoyed seeing how things were made .He also loved the seashore and not being able to share those perfect beach days with him anymore is sad.Also sad is that,now that Mom experiences short term memory loss,I'm the only one in the house to mourn him in this way.She misses Dad and tears are definitely shed at his absence,but reminding her of calendar events seems pointless and cruel. She lives in the" present" with me,but her memories are of her early childhood. TIA's and mini strokes have faded many more recent memories and she is upset not to be able to bring them to mind . And so,here I am,sharing with you.My interests in technical matters and hands-on building come from him . My deep love of the seashore and boating come from him . His manner of conducting himself and his business to glorify God is the model I strive to emulate. Yup,he's a tough act to follow ! Yup,I love him and miss him ,but I'm sooo grateful he was my father . Happy Birthday,Dad !